Monthly Archives: November 2016

Hands

How I want those hands to reach out for me, and pull me in, once again. To grab my fingers, and squeeze. To smile up at me, forgiving for all of the things I cannot do to save you. To make the hurt, and confusion go away. Katherine, I am not doing well today. Again… I am so sad, and I miss you so much my sweet child. Going through photos, looking for you, and I find that most of your photos are of you trying to be a part of someone else’s happiness. Trying to help your cousins do different things, of you smiling when asked, you trying to comfort some other person in some way, and small gesture. It breaks my heart that such an unbelievably amazing soul had to go so soon. I want to go back. I want one more chance to feel you. To feel how real you were in those moments where you were loving, living, hurting, so strong… In these moments without you here, I suffer, we all suffer. Every moment in time where I turned my back to you to leave, to do something else, to look the other way, is like a knife in my heart. I wish I could take it all back, and it just be us, our family, and you… no regrets, and I never made you feel alone. I’m so hallow and bare here, missing you. I know your sisters and father agree. You were so brave dear Katherine. Our sweet baby, I love you. I miss you. I am so sorry. I’m just so sorry…
#katherinethebrave #dipg #lovesandkisses #katherinethelegend #katherinedeservedmorethanfour

Hands

How I want those hands to reach out for me, and pull me in, once again. To grab my fingers, and squeeze. To smile up at me, forgiving for all of the things I cannot do to save you. To make the hurt, and confusion go away. Katherine, I am not doing well today. Again… I am so sad, and I miss you so much my sweet child. Going through photos, looking for you, and I find that most of your photos are of you trying being a part of someone else’s life. Trying to help your cousins do different things, of you smiling when asked, you trying to comfort some other person in some way, and small gesture. It breaks my heart that such an unbelievably amazing soul had to go so soon. I want to go back. I want one more chance to feel you. To feel how real you were in those moments where you were loving, living, hurting, so strong… In these moments without you here, I suffer, we all suffer. Every moment in time where I turned my back to you to leave, to do something else, to look the other way, is like a knife in my heart. I wish I could take it all back, and it just be us, our family, and you… no regrets, and I never made you feel alone. You were so brave dear Katherine. My sweet baby, I love you. I miss you. I am so sorry. I’m just so sorry…
#katherinethebrave #dipg #lovesandkisses #katherinethelegend #katherinedeservedmorethanfour

Marijuana

Legalize and decriminalize marijuana to lower the price to patients and those with terminal illnesses. 7 year old children such as Katherine included… I don’t even have to read the marijuana initiative to make a decision. The rigamarole and nightmare expense we suffered for our terminally ill child is all the education we needed to discuss this topic on real life experience terms. Changes in this law need to start somewhere. The cost is atrocious and we lost so much because of the lack of federal support for our daughters oils and the manufacturers trying to help our children. Our hell, and the hell of families we are currently trying to help, vs. heavy narcotics and drugs, should be taken into account. Consider the last 12 months of our lives and our transparency in regards to the struggle our daughter faced. Katie didn’t take steroids or meds until a few weeks before she passed. That was her oils. And her strength was apparent because she was pain free and aware. Thank you… #katherinethebrave #dipg #lovesandkisses